I am currently at Matema Beach in Tanzania. Probably up there on one of the prettiest places I have ever been. It’s funny because I came here, completely sick of traveling, but not wanting to be alone on New Years. What’s one more little trip in my region? And here I lay, 12:30 am, the first day of the New Year, already lying in bed. I can hear the screams of joy and enthusiasm from my friends at the beach. What a loser I am.
Why am I not there? Good question. I am not really sure. I just started to reflect on 2011 and felt the need to write it down. I think it is very important to look forward to (to hope for) a good new year, but, before you look forward to the new year, I think it is even more important to look at the previous year. What’s the point of history if not for to learn from it?
Trying to put everything I have learned from 2011 into words is a tedious task. It has been, single-handedly, the most eye-opening year of my life. I have learned a new language, culture, way of living, etc. I have learned that people (even entire cultures) often let you down, but you should never lose hope in them because they also sometimes come through when you least expect it.
I have learned that life isn’t fair—not even a little bit—all you can do is take the cards you have been dealt and play them as best you can. If you don’t play them perfectly, it is not the end of the world. We all make mistakes. You cannot let yourself dwell too much if your hand is better or worse than another’s. Consider yourself lucky to have your hand, play your cards to the best of your abilities, don’t stop caring about the other players involved (it wouldn’t be much fun without them, after all), and don’t forget that good, winning hands, although good and winning, do not at all equate to what kind of player you are, what attitude you have towards the games, and how you react to the outcome (good or bad).
As I get older I realize that the more I learn, the less I understand. This is extremely frustrating to me. I like to comprehend the ways and workings of the world. In 2012, I am going to work on being ok with the fact that I never will understand a lot of stuff.
Live in love– with life, people, music, animals, places, cultures, the unknown, etc. It’s all great. I cannot wait for 2012. New lessons, adventures and memories.
Be a friend you would want to have in return, stay true to yourself, if it makes you happy it can’t be that bad. 2012! HOORAY!